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#Senat fördert #radikal-islamische #Kita in #Berlin


Gunnar #Schupelius: In Neukölln wird eine #Kindertagesstätte mit 188 Plätzen gebaut und vom Senat mit 4,2 Millionen Euro gefördert. Der Träger ist mit einem radikalen #Moscheeverein verbunden.

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In einer funktionierenden Gesellschaft passen sich die Gäste dem Gastgeber an.
In Deutschland passt sich die Gesellschaft den Gästen an und verzichtet auf seine Kultur.
#Islamismus #Gruppenvergewaltigungen #Messermorde #Brandmauertote #Islam #Brandmaueropfer #Massenvergewaltigungen
#Islam #Moslem #Islamisten #Migration #Remigration #Bevölkerungsaustausch


Gunnar Schupelius: Berliner Senat fördert radikal-islamische Kita | Regional

Der Trägerverein hängt mit einem Großayatollah im Irak zusammen, der die Zwangsehe rechtfertigt und den Terror gegen Israel verherrlicht.
Gunnar Schupelius (BILD)

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Async Queue – One of my favorite programming interview questions

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Async Queue – One of My Favorite Programming Interviews (Can AI Break It?)

For the past 7+ years, I've been conducting a programming interview that has been a true personal favorite of mine. It was passed down to me from good friends (Jeremy Kaplan and Carl Sverre, and it was the latter whom I believe invented it).
David Gomes

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UNRWA: 600,000 children in the Gaza Strip are currently living amidst the rubble without an education dailyyemen.net/2025/07/06/unrw…

UNRWA: 600,000 children in the Gaza Strip are currently living amidst the rubble without an education

The United Nations Relief and Works Agency for Palestine Refugees (UNRWA) announced that 600,000 children in the Gaza Strip are currently living amidst the rubble without access to education.The agency called on the United Nations to allow the agenc
DAILY YEMEN

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John Craig - Doing My Own Thing (2011 Soul-Blues)

@justinerickson @amerika @c00p @RayGun @AngryWraith
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So Meloni is screwing over the Italians .. as expected!
When she was candidate, I warned about this 😡

She's a member of the Marxist Aspen Institute, which is a full member of the Great Reset cabal. Why did people just ignore this fact?

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Meloni Betrays Italy

Join Restore Britain here: https://www.restorebritain.org.uk/join_usYou can find the reading lists of each individual podcast episode on our website: https:/...
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bytesde.com/1151532/ Ukrainische UGVs revolutionieren militärische Logistik und retten Leben, indem sie die Logistik vom Menschen auf Roboter übertragen. Ratel H, entwickelt von einem Brave1 -Teilnehmer, kann medizinische Versorgung, Munition und Fracht über 400 kg liefern und bis zu 1.500 kg schleppen. #Konflikt #KriegInDerUkraine #RussischerÜberfallAufDieUkraineSeit2022 #Ukraine #UkraineWarVideoReport #UkraineWarVideoReport
Ukrainische UGVs revolutionieren militärische Logistik und retten Leben, indem sie die Logistik vom Menschen auf Roboter übertragen. Ratel H, entwickelt von einem Brave1 -Teilnehmer, kann medizinische Versorgung, Munition und Fracht über 400 kg liefern und bis zu 1.500 kg schleppen.

Ukrainische UGVs revolutionieren militärische Logistik und retten Leben, indem sie die Logistik vom Menschen auf Roboter übertragen. Ratel H, entwickelt von einem Brave1 -Teilnehmer, kann medizinische Versorgung, Munition und Fracht über 400 kg liefern un

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Lady Gaga, Ariana Grande - Rain On Me (Official Music Video)

"Rain On Me" by Lady Gaga and Ariana Grande is an exhilarating dance-pop anthem that celebrates resilience and the power of friendship. With its infectious beat and empowering lyrics, this collaboration showcases the vocal prowess of both artists, making it a standout track that encourages listeners to embrace life's challenges.

🎵 LYRICS 🎵:
I didn't ask for a free ride
I only asked you to show me a real good time
I never asked for the rainfall
At least I showed up, you showed me nothing at all

It's coming down on me
Water like misery
It's coming down on me
I'm ready, rain on me

I'd rather be dry, but at least I'm alive
Rain on me, rain, rain
Rain on me, rain, rain
I'd rather be dry, but at least I'm alive
Rain on me, rain, rain
Rain on me

Rain on me
Mmm, oh yeah, baby
Rain on me

Living in a world where no one's innocent
Oh, but at least we try
Gotta live my truth, not keep it bottled in
So I don't lose my mind
Baby, yeah

I can feel it on my skin
It's coming down on me
Teardrops on my face
Water like misery
Let it wash away my sins
It's coming down on me
Let it wash away

I'd rather be dry, but at least I'm alive
Rain on me, rain, rain
Rain on me, rain, rain
I'd rather be dry, but at least I'm alive
Rain on me, rain, rain
Rain on me

Rain on me
Rain on me
Oh yeah, yeah
Rain on me, ooh yeah
Rain on me
Rain on me

Hands up to the sky
I'll be your galaxy, I'm about to fly
Rain on me, tsunami
Hands up to the sky
I'll be your galaxy, I'm about to fly
Rain on me

I'd rather be dry, but at least I'm alive
Rain on me, rain, rain
Rain on me, rain, rain
I'd rather be dry, but at least I'm alive
Rain on me, rain, rain
Rain on me

I hear the thunder coming down, won't you rain on me?
Rain on me
I hear the thunder coming down, won't you rain on me?
Rain on me

Directed by Robert Rodriguez
Album Artist: Lady Gaga, Ariana Grande
Album(s): Chromatica
Written by: Alexander Ridha, Ariana Grande, Betty Wright, Jeremiah Burden, Martin Bresso, Matthew James Burns, Michael Tucker, Nija Aisha Alayja Charles, Rami Yacoub, Stefani J. Germanotta, Vernetta Lynn Williams
Music genre(s): Dance-Pop
Released: 2020
Decade for first release: #2020sMusic

#LadyGaga #ArianaGrande #RainOnMe #DancePop #2020sMusic #resilience #friendship

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Ariana Grande, The Weeknd - Love Me Harder

"Love Me Harder" by Ariana Grande featuring The Weeknd is a sultry and passionate duet that explores the depths of desire and connection. With its captivating melodies and powerful vocal performances, this single showcases the chemistry between the two artists, making it a standout track in contemporary pop music.

🎵 LYRICS 🎵:
Tell me something, I need to know
Then take my breath and never let it go
If you just let me invade your space
I'll take the pleasure, take it with the pain

And if in the moment I bite my lip
Baby, in the moment, you'll know this is
Something bigger than us and beyond bliss
Give me a reason to believe it

'Cause if you want to keep me
You gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta got to love me harder
And if you really need me
You gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta got to love me harder
Gotta love me harder
(Ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh)
Love me, love me, love me
(Ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh)
Harder, harder, harder

I know your motives and you know mine
The ones that love me, I tend to leave behind
If you know about me and choose to stay
Then take this pleasure and take it with the pain

And if in the moment you bite your lip
When I get you moaning you know it's real
Can you feel the pressure between your hips
I'll make it feel like the first time

'Cause if you want to keep me
You gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta got to love me harder
(Imma love you harder)
And if you really need me
You gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta got to love me harder
(Love me harder)
(Ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh)
Love me, love me, love me
(Ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh)
Harder, harder, harder
(Ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh)
Love me, love me, love me
(Ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh)
Harder, harder, harder

So what would I do if I can't figure it out?
You got to try, try, try again
So what would I do if I can't figure it out?
I'm gonna leave, leave, leave again
'Cause if you want to keep me
You gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta got to love me harder
(Imma love you, love you, love you)
And if you really need me
You gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta got to love me harder
(Love me, love me, baby)

'Cause if you want to keep me
You gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta got to love me harder
(Love me harder)
And if you really need me
You gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta got to love me harder
(Imma love you harder)
(Ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh)
Love me, love me, love me
(Ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh, ho-o-oh)
Harder, harder, harder
(Love me, love me, baby)
Love me, love me, love me
(Just a little bit harder, harder, a little bit)
Harder, harder, harder

Album Artist: Ariana Grande, The Weeknd
Album(s): Love Me Harder - Single
Written by: Peter Anders Svensson, Max Martin, Savan Kotecha, Ali Payami, Ahmad Balshe, Abel Tesfaye
Music genre(s): Pop, R&B
Released: 2014
Decade for first release: #2010sMusic

#ArianaGrande #TheWeeknd #LoveMeHarder #Pop #RnB #2010sMusic #desire #connection #lingerie #sexyLingerie #nightGown #petite #petiteGirl

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Xi replies to U.S. youth pickleball cultural exchange delegation over China visit - China Military

Chinese President Xi Jinping has recently replied to teachers and students of the U.S. youth pickleball cultural exchange delegation from Montgomery County, Maryland, who have visited China under the initiative of inviting 50,000 young Americans to C…
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Ariana Grande - The Way (Official Video) ft. Mac Miller

"The Way" by Ariana Grande is a romantic and soulful track that beautifully expresses the feeling of being in love. With its smooth melodies and heartfelt lyrics, this song from the album "Yours Truly" showcases Grande's impressive vocal talent and her ability to connect with listeners on an emotional level.

🎵 LYRICS 🎵:
What we gotta do right here is go back, back to the top

I love the way you make me feel
I love it, I love it
I love the way you make me feel
I love it, I love it

Say, I'm thinking 'bout her every second, every hour
Do my singing in the shower
Picking petals off the flowers like
Do she love me, do she love me not? (love me not)
I ain't a player,I just (Player, I just...)

You give me that kind of something
Want it all the time, need it everyday
On a scale of one to ten I'm at a hundred
Never get enough, I can't stay away
If you want it, I got it, I got it everyday
You can get whatever you need from me
Stay by your side, I'll never leave you
And I ain't going nowhere 'cause you're a keeper

So don't you worry, baby, you got me
I got a bad boy, I must admit it (Hey)
You got my heart, don't know how you did it (Hey)
And I don't care who sees it, babe
I don't wanna hide the way I feel when you're next to me (Hey)

I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it, I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it, I love it)
The way you love me

Oh, it's so crazy you get my heart jumping
When you put your lips on mine
And, honey, it ain't a question (Q-q-question)
'Cause, boy, I know just what you like
So if you need it, I got it, I got it everyday
Be your lover, your friend, you'll find it all in me
Stay by your side, I'll never leave you
Said I ain't going nowhere 'cause you're a keeper

So don't you worry, baby, you got me
I got a bad boy, I must admit it (Hey)
You got my heart, don't know how you did it (Hey)
And I don't care who sees it, babe
I don't wanna hide the way I feel when you're next to me (Hey)

I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it, I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it, I love it)
The way I love you

I make you feel so fine, make you feel so fine
I hope you hit me on my celly when I sneak in your mind
You a princess to the public, but a freak when it's time
Said your bed be feeling lonely
So you're sleeping in mine
Come and watch a movie with me
"American Beauty" or "Bruce Almighty" that's groovy
Just come and move closer to me
I got some feelings for you I'm not gonna get bored of
But, baby, you're an adventure so let me come and explore you

So don't you worry, baby, you got me
I got a bad boy, I must admit it (Hey)
You got my heart, don't know how you did it (Hey)
And I don't care who sees it, babe
I don't wanna hide the way I feel when you're next to me (Hey)

I love the way (I love the way)
I love the way (I love it, I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it, I love it)
I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it, I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it)
The way I love you

The way I love you, you, you, yeah, the way
I love the way you make me feel
I love it, I love it
I love the way you make me feel
I love it
The way I love you

Album Artist: Ariana Grande
Album(s): Yours Truly
Written by: Douglas Gibson, Robert W. Manigault, Brenda Gordon Russell, Amber Denise Streeter, Gerald Elliot Thomas, Harmony David Samuels, Jordin Sparks, Al Sherrod Lambert, Malcolm James McCormick, James W. Castor, Harry V. Jensen, Langdon Jr. Fridie
Music genre(s): R&B, Pop
Released: 2013
Decade for first release: #2010sMusic

#ArianaGrande #MacMiller #YoursTruly #theWay #RnB #Pop #2010sMusic #romance #soulful

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Pro-Kurdish lawmakers in Turkey visit Ocalan as PKK prepares to disarm english.almayadeen.net/news/po…

Pro-Kurdish lawmakers in Turkey visit Ocalan as PKK prepares to disarm

Lawmakers from the DEM party visit Abdullah Ocalan in Imrali prison as Kurdistan Workers' Party militants prepare to begin disarmament.
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Ariana Grande - breathin

"breathin" by Ariana Grande is an empowering pop anthem that addresses anxiety and the importance of self-care. With its uplifting beat and relatable lyrics, this track from the album "Sweetener" showcases Grande's vocal strength and her ability to inspire listeners to find calm amidst chaos.

🎵 LYRICS 🎵:
Some days, things just take
Way too much of my energy
I look up and the whole room's spinning
You take my cares away
I can so over-complicate, people tell me to medicate

Feel my blood runnin', swear the sky's fallin'
I know that all this - fabricated, mm
Time goes by and I can't control my mind
Don't know what else to try, but you tell me every time

Just keep breathin' and breathin' and breathin' and breathin'
And, oh, I gotta keep, keep on breathin'
Just keep breathin' and breathin' and breathin' and breathin'
And, oh, I gotta keep, keep on breathin', mm-mm

Sometimes, it's hard to find
Find my way up into the clouds
Tune it out, they can be so loud
You remind me of a time
When things weren't so complicated
All I need is to see your face

Feel my blood runnin', swear the sky's fallin'
I know that all this - fabricated, mm
Time goes by and I can't control my mind
Don't know what else to try, but you tell me every time

Just keep breathin' and breathin' and breathin' and breathin'
And, oh, I gotta keep, I keep on breathin'
Just keep breathin' and breathin' and breathin' and breathin'
And, oh, I gotta keep, I keep on breathin', mm, yeah

My, my air, my, my air
My, my air, my air
My, my air, my, my air
My, my air, yeah

Just keep breathin' and breathin' and breathin' and breathin'
And, oh, I gotta keep, I keep on breathin'
Just keep breathin' and breathin' and breathin' and breathin'
And, oh, I gotta keep (ay), I keep on breathin', mm, yeah

Feel my blood runnin', swear the sky's fallin' (oh, whoa)
I keep on breathin' (oh, yeah)
Time goes by and I can't control my mind
I keep on breathin', mm, yeah

Directed by Hannah Lux Davis
Produced by Fuliane Petikyan & Brandon Bonfiglio
Edited by Hannah Lux Davis & Anne Laure Dhooghe
For London Alley

Music video by Ariana Grande performing breathin.

Album Artist: Ariana Grande
Album(s): Sweetener
Written by: Peter Anders Svensson, Savan Harish Kotecha, Ilya Salmanzadeh, Ariana Grande
Music genre(s): Pop
Released: 2018
Decade for first release: #2010sMusic

#ArianaGrande #Sweetener #breathin #Pop #2010sMusic #anxiety #selfCare

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Ariana Grande - Into You (Official Video)

"Into You" by Ariana Grande is an electrifying pop track that captures the thrill of infatuation and desire. With its pulsating beat and sultry lyrics, this song from the album "Dangerous Woman" showcases Grande's vocal range and ability to convey deep emotions, making it a fan favourite.

🎵 LYRICS 🎵:
I'm so into you
I can barely breathe
And all I wanna do
Is to fall in deep

But close ain't close enough
'Til we cross the line, hey, yeah
So name a game to play
And I'll roll the dice, hey

Oh, baby, look what you started
The temperature's rising in here
Is this gonna happen?
Been waiting and waiting for you to make a move (ooh, ooh)
Before I make a move (ooh, ooh)

So, baby, come light me up
And maybe I'll let you on it
A little bit dangerous
But, baby, that's how I want it
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
'Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you

Got everyone watchin' us
So, baby, let's keep it secret
A little bit scandalous
But, baby, don't let them see it
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
'Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you
Ooh, yeah

This could take some time, hey
I made too many mistakes
Better get this right, right, baby

Oh, baby, look what you started
The temperature's rising in here
Is this gonna happen?
Been waiting and waiting for you to make a move (ooh, ooh)
Before I make a move (ooh, ooh)

So, baby, come light me up
And maybe I'll let you on it
A little bit dangerous
But, baby, that's how I want it
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
'Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you

Got everyone watchin' us
So, baby, let's keep it secret
A little bit scandalous
But, baby, don't let them see it
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
'Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you ('cause I'm so into you)

Tell me what you came here for
'Cause I can't, I can't wait no more
I'm on the edge with no control
And I need, I need you to know
You to know, oh, yeah

So, baby, come light me up (light me up)
And maybe I'll let you on it
A little bit dangerous (dangerous)
But, baby, that's how I want it (how I want it)
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
'Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you

Got everyone watchin' us (watchin' us)
So, baby, let's keep it secret
A little bit scandalous (scandalous)
But, baby, don't let them see it
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
'Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you

So come light me up
So come light me up, my baby
Little dangerous
A little dangerous, my baby
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
'Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you

Directed by Hannah Lux Davis
Produced by Brandon Bonfiglio

Music video by Ariana Grande performing Into You.

Album Artist: Ariana Grande
Album(s): Dangerous Woman
Written by: Martin Karl Sandberg, Alexander Erik Kronlund, Savan Harish Kotecha, Ilya Salmanzadeh, Ariana Grande
Music genre(s): Pop
Released: 2016
Decade for first release: #2010sMusic

#ArianaGrande #DangerousWoman #intoYou #Pop #2010sMusic #infatuation #desire

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Sheikh Qassem: Palestine will remain for its people and a right for its people. We believe in its liberation and will stand by its side. english.alahednews.news/fastne…

Sheikh Qassem: Palestine will remain for its people and a ri...

Alahednews - Fastnews - Sheikh Qassem: Palestine will remain for its people and a right for its people. We believe in its liberation and will stand by its side.
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“Another Tool of Israel’s Genocide”: Over 740 Starving Civilians Killed by Israeli Forces While Seeking Food in Gaza #Palestine qudsnen.co/another-tool-of-isr…

“Another Tool of Israel’s Genocide”: Over 740 Starving Civilians Killed by Israeli Forces While Seeking Food in Gaza

Gaza (Quds News Network)- Over 740 starving civilians have been killed by Israeli forces while seeking aid near distribution sites run by the US- and Israeli-backed Gaza Humanitarian Foundation (GHF)
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Research from last year estimates that climate disaster costs will be around $38Tn annually with a range of $19-59Tn in 2050. This is around 20% income reduction.

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Projected income changes in 2049 compared to an economy without climate change. Income changes are committed in the sense that they are caused by historical emissions. (Image: Kotz et al., Nature)

38 trillion dollars in damages each year: World economy already committed to income reduction of 19 % due to climate change

17.04.2024 - Even if CO2 emissions were to be drastically cut down starting today, the world economy is already committed to an income reduction of 19 % until 2050 due to climate change, a new study published in “Nature” finds.
Potsdam Institute for Climate Impact Research

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In unsurprising results it turns out that protected #cycle lanes produce more cyclists than buffered cycle lanes, and both encourage more commuter use than standard #bicycle lanes or sharrows.

nature.com/articles/s44284-025…

a protected bicycle lane with cyclists using it.

The link between low-stress bicycle facilities and bicycle commuting - Nature Cities

Bicycling offers a range of benefits for urban commuters, but the facilities that best facilitate bicycle lane use are still unclear.
Nature

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As I am trying to get this memorial service for my mom together, I'm going through a lot of pictures of her. I just got a bunch from her sister, of when she was younger.

I've been with mom almost every day, for the last 17 years. Then, she was about 300 pounds. The last 6 years mom battled mini strokes and type 2 diabetes. She was losing weight the past 5 years or so, which we attributed to her not having her stressful job anymore (she wrongfully got fired after her first stroke).

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Her nails were always bitten to the quick from the stress she was under at the brokerage firm. After she "medically" retired (no job for her to go to, anymore--plus, nobody would hire a 76 yr old woman) her nails grew. So we thought the weight loss was from her not stress eating.

She was diagnosed with a pancreatic mass 19 months ago during a hospital stay. We elected to not biopsy or treat her for it. I started her on the Joe Tippens protocol, which I did for about seven months.

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However, I lost control of her meds after the final stroke that put her in rehab. She never got well enough to leave the nursing home. SInce they controlled her meds, wouldn't give her anything except from FDA approved, labeled bottles , I couldn't get them to give her the off-label fenbendazole. Mom lost too much executive reasoning to self-administer the meds, or I would have sneaked them in to her. I could get one dose in for sure, during my daily visit, but the protocol is 2x a day.
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It took mom exactly one year of nursing care--where she was off the Joe Tippens protocol --to finally die. She weigned less than 130 when she passed and her official diagnosis was "protein-calorie malnutrition ". My friend who runs a hospice told me it's a bullshit diagnosis when the doctors can't be certain exactly what's causing the patient to decline, except her weight was plummeting.

It's been 12 days since mom left me. And, as I've been going through these photos of her, I've noticed

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that the weight loss was profound and not like when Oprah lost weight, where she looked like a bobble- head. This looks like cancer, where mom was skeletal and her flesh melted away.

I had one final photo of my mom that I took a week before she died, for my aunt. (She tried to snap a picture during their last FaceTime but it didn't work so she asked me to take a picture.) I just looked at it and that's when I realized how bad my mom deteriorated.

There's only 1 reason I'm not sure about it.

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My mom was not in pain when she died. I asked her, countless times, and trust me, she would have told me.

The nurses all told me that pancreatic cancer is extremely painful. My mom did not exhibit that pain at all. She cried out once, when her sheets were being changed, because she was so thin and the movement hurt her. But she was okay after a minute. She never asked for morphine.

So although everything looked like cancer, I can't say for sure.

Maybe the Lord spared her that pain.

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Oh.... one last update

My brother is not coming to the service.
He just RSVP'd.

I am trying to be charitable. That means that I'm not trying to judge him or be bitter about it.

It is his choice. I think that it is a poor one, and an abysmal example for his children.

This is difficult for me to accept. Your mother's memorial service is a big deal. So big, that the military would send you home from war to attend it.

As retired military, he can even fly space-A within CONUS.

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There's no excuse for him not attending. He hasn't contributed even a penny towards her final expenses or the memorial.

I don't know how to feel about this. I want to be angry at him for not loving our mom, but I think my mom would rather have me pray for him because this is pretty indicative of his heart's condition and I know this was a source of anxiety for her. She knows I'm okay and we'll see each other again. But him... not so much. Deep inside, I think she knew his heart was hard.

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I am sure you have your reasons for the relationship between you and your mom and I fully support you in establishing your boundaries.

It's a little different for me. My brother is not nice to either of us. He hasn't been his entire life.

I appreciate that you are HONEST about your feelings. My brother is passive- aggressive about his feelings. He would draw my mom close to bludgeon her. For instance, he came into town on a connecting flight and called her.

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Thank you dear.

Just so you know, I'm just like you. I'm fine with not having a relationship with a sibling or a parent. And I respect that my daughter doesn't want one with me, even though I'm hurt by her choice.

I had to tolerate my bro for my mom. And I'm going to honor her by praying for him. But I'm not going to have him in my house. He's done and said some things to me that you wouldn't believe, including punching me in the face when we were teenagers.

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He asked her to come to the airport so he and his (2nd) wife could take her to dinner while he was waiting on his connecting flight.

She eagerly jumped in her car and drove 75 miles to BWI airport. (I refused, because I'm like you, I don't like that mofo, and I won't pretend, so I wouldn't go. )

She gets there and he's waiting alone. She asks where his wife is and he tells her that she's in the lounge. Mom is bewildered and then he tells her that he has to protect her (from my mother).

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Then he launched into a diatribe about his whole relationship with her and how he offended at how she's hurt his wife because she still keeping a relationship with his first wife (mother of her niece and nephew). My mom is confused, crying and really feeling trashed.

There was no dinner, of course. Mom drove the 75 miles back home from the airport, upset and with a monster headache.

My bro made his point

I've found six such emails in her Gmail from him.... all.on the same theme.

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I have no issue with not caring for a person in your family. But be up front, be honest, and then be DONE. That isn't what he's doing.

I'm hurt because he's a phony and acts like he wanted to have a relationshipbut not really any of the responsibilitiesthat go with it. His offense and anger is the excuse to justify deliberately shifting all mom's medical expenses onto me when he knows I'm not in the greatest financial situation.

This memorial service is his last act of disdain for her.

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I'm so sorry you have this in to of the pain of losing your mother, but this is not your burden to bear.
You offered an invitation to participate and to join.
Prayers are all you should give now for your own sanity. Put him out of your mind and let his own conscience rule his future.
God will deal with his naughtiness since that's His domain. Who knows what will happen?
Blessings and love!
🥰💞
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Amen sister. I have done right by my mom when she lived with me, and allowed that meat-ax across the threshold to see her... but, no more!

I will not suffer him in my house anymore. My duty and responsibility to care for my mom is ended. Part of caring for her was to get her closer to him because I knew she wanted to see her son more. If we hadn't moved to Texas, he wouldn't have made any effort.

I am in a way glad he won't be at the memorial. It's easier for me.

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I'm almost done with the video for my mom's service. It's a hodge podge of photos everybody sent to me and ones I found by looking in all of mom's boxes. Plus everything I could grab off my phone.

At first I was going to use the classic Commodore's song "Zoom" for the background music. But I prayed for the perfect song and a memory of a song came to me out of nowhere last night. It's going to be "I Will Remember You" by Amy Grant.

We all will remember our moms.

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